Why?

Time heals they say, but my wound still bleeds

My thoughts are constant, unceasing

They are always reaching out seeking the essence that is you

You are in my blood, in every heartbeat and breath

Everywhere I look every song I sing, every movement I make

You are there

I am lost in you, struggling to find a way out from under your wings

From your arms that still hold me tight, from the whispers in the night

Your breath is still upon my face, but the feeling of ever is no more

Memories linger and my life hurts more everyday you are gone

You slipped away from me in silence and haste

And if you were here in this moment with me, I would ask you why

When words I spoke and with gentle hands I touched

Was it not enough to keep you close?

There were no goodbyes, no uttered regrets

Just a fading from sight and the flashes of fire were gone

The feeling of belonging an idea once dreamt

The absence of hands and bodies touching

Of lips skimming over skin and minds, eyes lingering softly

Fills my nights with restless motion and my days with unfocused sight

The endlessness I feel flows through my fears

Of loneliness and pain and questions how

When love once shared in light and pure soul

Could fall into the black of human blindness

Leaving me to bleed from the inside out asking, always asking, why?

Michael you are my truth and hope, you are my heart and love. As long as one single breath remains in my body, I will carry your message and voice to the world. Your legacy will live on.

RIP My Forever King.

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