My Hope



Before you knew me I was there

Waiting for you to become aware

Of the message I had to share with you

That spoke of love, and hope and all things true

I have walked by your side holding your hands

Watching you grow into loyal fans

Smiling as you danced to Billie Jean

More loving hearts I have never seen

Together we grew into a beautiful tree

Watered by love for the world to see

Its branches grew, giving comfort and shade

A haven of peace so joyfully made

And when the world tried to tear me down

Just when I thought there was no-one around

You held my hand and stood by my side

With love, honor and so much pride

When my spirits fell through other’s blame

Yours lifted me up above the pain

And all could see that I was not alone

Your love for me was clearly shown

Through all these years we have been together

Believing that it would last forever

Until one day I heard my name being called

And I could not deny the voice of our Lord

I was pulled towards his loving arms

With joy and sadness walking arm in arm

From this Earth it was hard to depart

For behind me I would leave your broken hearts

Your tears rain down upon this place

As my absence from life you try to face

Please know I’m not that far from you at all

Really all you need to do is call

I promised that we would never part

Believe those words with all your heart

I am with you now and in each new day

Look for my star to guide your way

You surround my heart on David’s canvas

Bringing me hope and so much gladness

That what I stood for will never die

Even if some still dare to try

So spread my message in all you do

And water our tree with love and truth

Find your strength through God’s loving grace

And make this world a better place

I Loved You First

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Above All



I watched you from afar through the years

A nameless face in a sea of tears

Crying for joy with each new song

Forever in my heart you came to belong

From boy to man I loved you more

I came to believe in what you stood for

I vowed to follow the example you set

Your hopes and dreams I tried to protect

The message you sent I tended with care

Even though you were not aware

That on a distant shore, and out of reach

Your inspiring words I tried to teach

I dreamed of the day that we might meet

My face and heart you would joyfully greet

A lasting friendship between us would grow

The seeds of trust I would carefully sow

I carried this dream and hoped to dare

But the distance between us grew each year

I saw you rise to become a King

Of pop and hearts and souls within

In vain I called your name out loud

But how could you hear from above the crowds

Or see the nameless face I wore

And feel how much I loved you more

My tears streamed down as I counted the cost

Of dreams and hope I felt I had lost

And in the end, all I had left

Was a broken heart as they laid you to rest

Then by chance I found my way

To a place where I could openly say

How much I missed not having you here

And the guilt I felt for not being there

I connected with others who felt the same

And through our dots we ignited a flame

Now it burns on David’s canvas

Bright with love’s golden harness

Now my broken heart can mend

Through the Portrait, you have become my friend

My face now has a name you can call

Now you know I love you above all

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You Are Gone



What is this heart of mine, but an open field of grief?

Watered by the rains of loneliness

 Each beat rushes blood through my veins in painful reminder

You are gone

I have drifted through the cycle of seasons knowing this

Deep inside me I have known you won’t return

Ne’er the less I have floated on foolish hope

For when I feel your presence surround me

How can I believe

You are gone

Don’t you see my love?

 How my torment burns through reason?

This fervent need in me won’t rest

To seek you in all I do and all I am

Consumes each waking moment

In dreams I am drawn into love divine

And lay upon your bed to rest

But then I wake to find

You are gone

Swimming between these islands of thought

I am left adrift

Unable to choose just one existence in which to live

For when the agony of knowledge invades my soul

I quietly slip into my haven, my refuge

Where denial brings me you

 As you were and still are within my heart

From this I draw strength to face that moment

When I step once more into the mortal realm to find

You are gone

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Why?

Time heals they say, but my wound still bleeds

My thoughts are constant, unceasing

They are always reaching out seeking the essence that is you

You are in my blood, in every heartbeat and breath

Everywhere I look every song I sing, every movement I make

You are there

I am lost in you, struggling to find a way out from under your wings

From your arms that still hold me tight, from the whispers in the night

Your breath is still upon my face, but the feeling of ever is no more

Memories linger and my life hurts more everyday you are gone

You slipped away from me in silence and haste

And if you were here in this moment with me, I would ask you why

When words I spoke and with gentle hands I touched

Was it not enough to keep you close?

There were no goodbyes, no uttered regrets

Just a fading from sight and the flashes of fire were gone

The feeling of belonging an idea once dreamt

The absence of hands and bodies touching

Of lips skimming over skin and minds, eyes lingering softly

Fills my nights with restless motion and my days with unfocused sight

The endlessness I feel flows through my fears

Of loneliness and pain and questions how

When love once shared in light and pure soul

Could fall into the black of human blindness

Leaving me to bleed from the inside out asking, always asking, why?

Michael you are my truth and hope, you are my heart and love. As long as one single breath remains in my body, I will carry your message and voice to the world. Your legacy will live on.

RIP My Forever King.

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Words



If I had the words to explain how I feel

I would paint them on the sky for everyone to see

And stitch them upon tapestries in crimson and gold

Then hang them from the stars

I would sing them to the night and the breaking dawn

Place them upon the wind with the whispers of my heart

And dance them upon the minds of all who would hear

In sweet musical dreams

In the quiet, in the stillness, surrounded by this life

I would speak the words I search for and say

There are no words to explain how I feel

I simply love you!

 

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I Will Remember

You will always be the brightest star in my night

Your smile will remain the sweetest in my heart

No other will ever dance upon my stage

Or sing to my soul so completely as you

A single figure upon the stage

One spotlight shining down

Your face in shadows, hat slouched low

Poised and waiting to streak across our lives

With flashes of fire and movement

This is how I will always remember you

Thank you, Michael, for sharing your beautiful heart and talent with us.

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